I promised myself that I'm not going to be a bitch anymore about falling in love, but what I had just experienced fucking terrified me to no end. It was a clean, non-perverted dream, I must insist, but it all felt so real that up to this waking moment, a part of me was wishing that it all happened in reality! But no, it didn't. It wouldn't. Hell gotta eat me up for this, but yeah, it shouldn't....
Friday, October 31, 2014
Thursday, October 30, 2014
10.30.14
So it's the morning of the 30th. I have rushed a design for the sacerdotal anniversary of our parish priest and I had to meet the officials of the upcoming Christ the King celebration we are all preparing for. I'm not really feeling up for anything today, mainly because my head is hurting so much. It feels like half of my body's numb and it's probably because of my sleeping position last night. Sigh. The last time I felt so comfortable in my sleep was when we were at Lei's...
Wednesday, October 29, 2014
Totally Scared
It's month-end once more. Although I have paid my bills already, I can't help but feel really worried because I have debts to settle and I've got no fucking idea where I should get the money to pay them. It's painstakingly difficult trying to make all ends meet, especially when I have no means of proper income the past few months. I have a few dollars left, courtesy of my cousin in Australia, but I am intending that for another business I want to venture out on. So right now,...
A KaiSoo Fic Coming
I KNOW. I KNOW. You guys are side-eyeing me because I actually wrote a KaiSoo fic and it's not like Gemini which is just bromance. This is yaoi, not smut though because I won't be able to take it; but pretty much involves a little fluff and romance.. and probably angst. It's not gonna be anything major. I didn't even think too much about the scenes like how I always do with my stories; but I think this one does reflect actual raw emotions felt by real people in the very same...
Tuesday, October 28, 2014
Backtrack
Today, I feel like I've gone back to the past. I'm currently playing Shin Hyesung. I was just looking for WGM clips when I bumped into Andy's and then I realized how much I missed the older ones and then I headed to XMan days and then I remembered the comeback of S, and then I went back to Doll and then now, it's the Shin Hyesung song on my playlist. Wow. Detailed much? You see, there is one thing that I realized in this very shallow ordeal: you don't always forget your past....
Sunday, October 26, 2014
Panic State #12351234172938571298376081234
There are a lot of things going on but one thing's for sure, my capability to multi-task is once again being tested. After being told to organize the program and invitation for the upcoming Christ the King Celebration on November 23rd, I was also informed just this evening that I need to submit the drafts for the designs of the parish calendar for 2015. Insert in between the different responsibilities on my business and sidelines. This is going to be a hectic month-end, for...
Thursday, October 23, 2014
The Article about Animals I've Long Wanted to Write.
Just this morning, I woke up to a Facebook post of a friend announcing the death of one of her puppies, Chewy. Apparently, he drowned in the pool last night and the caretaker failed to notice him. I know that little bundle of joy, he's that one puppy who kept on trying to climb the steps into the house - sniffing the food we were cooking in the process. photo...
Monday, October 20, 2014
Back to the Game
Sooooo I've gone back to dieting. After going through limitless stress due to the church events and projects we did in the past few months, I gained back the pounds I lost and it even increased so I'm feeling a little depressed because of it right now, because dude, that's another hell to go through. :/ The motivation is the problem but I have decided to start again today. I got an oatmeal cookie for breakfast, a cup of rice and a few grams of boiled fish for lunch, and nothing...
Tuesday, October 14, 2014
God's Plans...
The year 2014 was supposed to be fun, exciting, interesting and all. And actually, it is. However, it leans more to the interesting side because this year seems like a healing year to me. Yes, healing. It feels like God had decided to recreate me and I haven't got a choice but to concede. Kris and Luhan left EXO. Baekhyun announced his relationship. I lost my job on my birthday. Now, sungmin is getting married. More than seeing these things in a negative light,...
Saturday, October 11, 2014
What is Love?
I was asked this typical question this evening by a young friend. While my other friends were probably trying to come up with a good answer, I immediately replied it's a mere illusion. They cursed at me for not believing on it - throwing their replies which basically goes around the idea of it being forever. I smirked. It isn't eternal. Many people are blinded by the idea of love lasting until the end of time when clearly, no human being is capable of giving that much. Only...
Monday, October 6, 2014
And Tears Came Falling...
For the past three months, I've been working my ass off without stopping - in hope to find a good way to find sustaining finances, after being terminated from C&E Holidays without warnings on my birthday. In order to earn, I've decided to push through with all types of part time jobs and businesses, where I was required to eat my pride and instill in my mind that at this moment, this is just what I am. I don't want to complain. I should not complain. But I need to admit...
Numb
When fear overpowers the will to do something, it's either you succumb or you fight back. I am in a crossroad right now. I do feel both: the desire and fear. But in a way, reality's leaning towards the second option more. I haven't gotten over the past, after all. And the result? I currently feel num...
Wednesday, October 1, 2014
Who Said Serving the Church is Easy?
I know. There are some people who think that volunteering in the church is a light form of service. Many assume that since we're in the church and this is the House of God, filled with blessings and all, there's no stress and pressure in there. Twelve years ago, that was what I thought. Twelve years after, I realized it was completely the opposite. Volunteering...
