Wednesday, July 30, 2014

Turning My Safety On

It's ironically amazing how one mistake can lead me to this ugly situation. The whole night, I contemplated on what I have seen and what my heart made me feel; and tears just ran down my cheeks for the first time in months. I never expected that though. I thought all this time, I'm already okay and that I can handle everything well; but I guess that's just not the case. I'm still caught in this see-through titanium box of unrequited love and it's locked from outside so I'm trapped. My...

Sunday, July 27, 2014

Where I Belong

When I lost my job, I expected myself to drown in misery. The directions I was trying to create for my life suddenly vanished and I wouldn't deny the depression I went through. It was horrible. It was so stifling that I spent sleepless nights. But I should have known that it wouldn't last long. A week, I spent nursing the negative emotions. But God had plans...

Monday, July 14, 2014

First Step to Glory

It wasn't the first event we did under the new administration. But why did it feel like so? I have personally heard the plans and witnessed the preparations; and actively took part on it, and enjoyed. so much. ALL FOR THE GLORY OF GOD AND ST. FRANCIS OF ASSISI. Everything wasn't easy though. It made me question and realize a lot of things about myself,...

Friday, July 11, 2014

D-2

I woke up with this usual churns in my stomach. It's a thing I've been experiencing since I lost my job, but to be honest, I know it happens now for an entirely different reason: EXCITEMENT. A lot of things had been happening - all directing me to happiness. But let's not be general and just talk about the main thing I'm excited about right at this very moment: CHURCH. On July 13th, the parish I'm serving in will be taking a major step to formally introduce and solidify the...

Wednesday, July 9, 2014

I Found My Reason

So I lost my job, right? And I kinda went through intense depression for the past few weeks. It wasn't easy, after all. It was beyond difficult. The anxiety which I refuse to pay attention to manifested on my sleep - and my health - and it was not good. I even had to cut my hair short, so you know the severity of the situation. The only way out back then was to find a positive reason why it happened. There has to be one, right? There is always a reason for everything, after...

Friday, July 4, 2014

Losing My Job To Find Life

It was my birthday when I received the termination letter from my boss in Singapore. According to him, the company was failing and the finances are unstable so they had to terminate my contract come the month-end. As I was reading the letter, I was shaking uncontrollably. Suddenly, all dreams came crumbling down and I was instantly slumped in depression and disappointment. Tears were non-stop and it hurt double because it was supposed to be a special day for me. Such kind of...

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