Showing posts with label personal blog. Show all posts
Showing posts with label personal blog. Show all posts

Wednesday, August 13, 2014

In life, you only make two decisions: to move forward or go backwards. Coming up with a choice between the two requires strength, courage and bravery. Because once you decided, there should be no more turning back.

And that's the difficult part. Picking which way to go is like choosing between your mom and dad. For some, it might be easy; but for others, it's not. To others, their pasts and futures are definitely hard to let go.

To be honest, there's only one way to go: move forward. You can never go backwards because that would make your life completely stagnant, eventually useless. One cannot live in the past for so long. It is mandatory to move on.

But who said you cannot look back? In the Philippines, we have a saying that goes: Ang hindi marunong lumingon sa pinanggalingan, hindi makakarating sa paroroonan. (He who doesn't know how to look back from where he came from will never get to his destination) And I think it's right. We cannot discard anything that happened in our lives. Our past, no matter how dark it might be, will always be a huge part of our future. It will either be a reminder of what you should not do, or a beautiful inspiration that will push you forward. We shouldn't go back to it, there's no way we can. But at least, let's look at it from time to time.


Move Back or Move On?

Saturday, August 2, 2014

It's 3:30AM and I'm waiting for my friends to fetch for another whole day of work around Bulacan churches. Killing time, I went online. After tearing up in frustration because of Sehun's glory, intense gratefulness followed when I read again Yuxing Unnie's blog... about me.

 I have talked over and over again how I met her. It all started with Super Junior and the blog I ran about them. It was a casual virtual meeting between a blogger and a passer-by. I never thought she was willing to stay.

Everyone knows I'm not the type to pay attention to everyone. I have trust issues among strangers and I'm very strict with who I let in my life. To me, quality will always be over quantity. I don't care about having only a few friends as long as they're true.

But ironically, I have long concluded that building longtime friendships over the internet - with people you don't know personally, with people who you communicate with only through computers - is possible. I have proven that with Yuxing Unnie.

And now she's saying that I made a big impact in her life and I'm one of her biggest influences.

Dude, this girl must be crazy! HAHAHA

But seriously... I'm touched. I'm grateful. I'm overjoyed. I never talked about this and it may sound cheesy but she's one of the greatest sources of happiness I've met along the way. Everytime I feel like trash and worthless, she always comes up to me randomly telling me she misses me and she loves me.

If that's not a miracle to you, I don't know what that is.

She always tells people that I inspire her. And I don't know where that came from. Me? Inspiring people? I can already hear those who know me personally scoffing at that ridiculous thought. But then I guess that's what's her purpose is in my life. She was placed in my world because God knew I need someone to constantly remind me that I am beautiful and some people appreciate me the way I am.

Without questions. Without hesitations. Without demands.

 And for that, I love her so much.




Did I Save A Nation in My Past Life?

Sunday, July 27, 2014

When I lost my job, I expected myself to drown in misery. The directions I was trying to create for my life suddenly vanished and I wouldn't deny the depression I went through. It was horrible. It was so stifling that I spent sleepless nights. But I should have known that it wouldn't last long. A week, I spent nursing the negative emotions.

But God had plans for me, clearly. Beautiful plans, they are.

Just a few days after my birthday, I had this urge to go to church to help my friends there. I thought it would just be to pass time, but eventually it turned into a gorgeous distraction. An event was organized and being a part of it, I became so busy.

After the momentous celebration, I thought there would be nothing more to do. I was readying myself already to going back to that pit of self-pity and frustration when I received a call from Kuya Luis, the bishop's secretary from the Diocese of Malolos. I was asked if I they could hire me for a huge diocesan project which they will start on this month, as a layout artist. I immediately said yes.

No, it's not just about the fact that I will earn from this. It's the fact that through this project, I'll get to do several things I actually dreamed of doing, and still get paid. First, I get to know more about the history of the Catholic faith in Bulacan. Second, I get to go around the important places and churches in my province with other photographers. Third, I get to take part on a project that aims to promulgate the beauty of Catholicism in my place, and promote the cultural and historical value of these religious venues. Exciting, right?


We have had our meetings twice already, and I'm excited. Kuya Marvin said we're gonna start on August 2 and I guess I'll be very busy that time. I just wish I won't get employed yet because I really want to finish this. We have a week to do everything, after all. I wish my job, if ever I deserve the position on the bank I applied in, can wait.

As I try to imagine myself working on this, I feel extremely grateful already. I mean, this chance does not come to just anyone. It's a privilege, more than an opportunity; and I feel very blessed that I got to meet people who will help me find my way to this kind of profession. It's just overwhelming sometimes; and fun, most times.

But I guess, that's normal when I'm where I really belong. ♥

Where I Belong

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