Wednesday, December 31, 2014

Happy New Year, Everyone!

In a few hours, the world's gonna say goodbye to 2014 and will be facing a brand new year. What we're living in today will be considered the past now and all that's left to do is to look forward to an amazing 2015. To say that 2014 was easy is definitely telling a lie. At least to me, it marked itself as one of the most difficult years in my whole two and a half decades of existence. 2015 started off nice, abundant and fun until the second half decided to fuck up with me so...

Monday, December 29, 2014

Selca Stick from October 1926

We are all familiar to monopods, right? It is this stick where we fix our phones on so we can take good pictures of ourselves without having to exert too much effort stretching our arms just so we can capture nice angles. I don't know where it actually came from, but it did became popular in the Philippines a year before it took South Korea by storm. While...

Friday, December 26, 2014

Post Christmas Drama Because No One Wanted to Listen

It was Christmas yesterday and as much as I want to talk about whatever I feel, how harsh fate had decided to be to me on that one special day, I couldn't. I couldn't fucking find the courage to talk about what I'm going through because I know that no one would bother to care. No one would actually listen without teasing me, without thinking that I'm just overreacting and without telling me that it's my entire fault for being stupid and assuming. Believe me, I tried. I expressed...

Saturday, December 20, 2014

I’m about to admit something that sucks, something that I’ve been trying to really avoid and take no notice of. I could have just disregard it but it’s giving me too much burden so though I really don’t want to say it, I guess I really have to: I’m lonely. I’m depressed. And right now, I really want someone to hug me and tell me without words that I am wanted. Loneliness is one of the worst parts of my being human. Despite my tough facade, I am a sensitive person who’s easily...

Monday, December 8, 2014

The IGMP Experience of A First Timer

For many of my camarero friends, a grand event to look forward to is the Grand Marian Procession in Intramuros, Manila. Happening every first Sunday of December, it is considered the mother of all of its kind in the country. Yearly, hundreds of Marian images are processioned around the city within the walls, in honor of the Our Lady of the Immaculate Conception...

Monday, December 1, 2014

Ang Puting Duwende

"May nagbabantay sa`yong puting duwende." The first time I heard this, I was in Grade 1. Mom told her friend (my then-teacher/librarian, RIP) that I've been taking care of a budding duhat plant in our garden. It was a typical conversation between two mothers about their kids until the fact that I am always transferring the plant to different spots yet it wouldn't die. Tita Glo then told my mom that that's because someone is guiding over me, protecting that plant...

Friday, November 28, 2014

Feeling Accomplished

It's normal for me to get a lot of things done when I'm in the mood like today, but it's exciting to note that after a long time, I got to feel really accomplished with what I did this afternoon. One little act, but it ignited the fire of hope in me that maybe, maybe there's still a chance for me to change. I'm talking about saving money. Since I received my salary yesterday, I went to the mall this afternoon to pay my bills. Now, that is always challenging because I tend to...

Wednesday, November 26, 2014

Overexposure & Underexposure: The Thoughts of an Amateur

One night, I was reviewing my photography basics when I came across one tip that would be the biggest push in my ability: MASTER THE RULES, AND THEN BREAK IT. It was a hilarious irony, for those who don't understand, but for those practicing photography, this is the golden rule. That's why when I picked up Celine's Nikon D90, I decided to play along the motivation....

Monday, November 24, 2014

It's That Feeling Again

It's not a secret that I'm one of the busiest people in town during the preparations for the Feast Day of Christ the King. Teased as 'Hermana', I am one of those who had to exert 101% effort to get things done, to meet deadlines, to gather people, and to assure smooth flow of the whole event. It was like a practice for what I learned in college. It was...

Saturday, November 22, 2014

New Year's Eve: Happy Christ the King!

Tomorrow, November 23, the Catholic Church will be celebrating the feast of Christ the King. Aside from being the highest among the religious feasts, it marks the end of the church calendar. Coming after it is the advent/Christmas season. In the Parish of St. Francis of Assisi in Meycauayan, Christ the King celebrations are organized and prepared by the...

Thursday, November 13, 2014

I'm Not That Type of Woman

I'm not gonna pretend like I know everything. I'm not gonna act high and almighty just because I know a little. I'm not that type of person who finds glory in popularity and fame. I'm never gonna be that person whose life is being run by the opinions of others around her. Thus, I give no one the right to judge me for whatever I do. As I constantly say, there's not only one way to get something important done. Maybe for some, it applies; but for most, it doesn't. People must...

Tuesday, November 11, 2014

A Simple Wish

It was a few months ago when I took this picture. The Parish of St. Francis of Assisi had gone through a major change that was celebrated by a high mass officiated by the bishop. I can still clearly remember that morning when everyone was in the state of panic. The bishop had arrived, the mass was about to start. I was in front, ready with my camera, when...

Friday, October 31, 2014

I promised myself that I'm not going to be a bitch anymore about falling in love, but what I had just experienced fucking terrified me to no end. It was a clean, non-perverted dream, I must insist, but it all felt so real that up to this waking moment, a part of me was wishing that it all happened in reality! But no, it didn't. It wouldn't. Hell gotta eat me up for this, but yeah, it shouldn't....

Thursday, October 30, 2014

10.30.14

So it's the morning of the 30th. I have rushed a design for the sacerdotal anniversary of our parish priest and I had to meet the officials of the upcoming Christ the King celebration we are all preparing for. I'm not really feeling up for anything today, mainly because my head is hurting so much. It feels like half of my body's numb and it's probably because of my sleeping position last night. Sigh. The last time I felt so comfortable in my sleep was when we were at Lei's...

Wednesday, October 29, 2014

Totally Scared

It's month-end once more. Although I have paid my bills already, I can't help but feel really worried because I have debts to settle and I've got no fucking idea where I should get the money to pay them. It's painstakingly difficult trying to make all ends meet, especially when I have no means of proper income the past few months. I have a few dollars left, courtesy of my cousin in Australia, but I am intending that for another business I want to venture out on. So right now,...

A KaiSoo Fic Coming

I KNOW. I KNOW. You guys are side-eyeing me because I actually wrote a KaiSoo fic and it's not like Gemini which is just bromance. This is yaoi, not smut though because I won't be able to take it; but pretty much involves a little fluff and romance.. and probably angst. It's not gonna be anything major. I didn't even think too much about the scenes like how I always do with my stories; but I think this one does reflect actual raw emotions felt by real people in the very same...

Tuesday, October 28, 2014

Backtrack

Today, I feel like I've gone back to the past. I'm currently playing Shin Hyesung. I was just looking for WGM clips when I bumped into Andy's and then I realized how much I missed the older ones and then I headed to XMan days and then I remembered the comeback of S, and then I went back to Doll and then now, it's the Shin Hyesung song on my playlist. Wow. Detailed much? You see, there is one thing that I realized in this very shallow ordeal: you don't always forget your past....

Sunday, October 26, 2014

Panic State #12351234172938571298376081234

There are a lot of things going on but one thing's for sure, my capability to multi-task is once again being tested. After being told to organize the program and invitation for the upcoming Christ the King Celebration on November 23rd, I was also informed just this evening that I need to submit the drafts for the designs of the parish calendar for 2015. Insert in between the different responsibilities on my business and sidelines. This is going to be a hectic month-end, for...

Thursday, October 23, 2014

The Article about Animals I've Long Wanted to Write.

Just this morning, I woke up to a Facebook post of a friend announcing the death of one of her puppies, Chewy. Apparently, he drowned in the pool last night and the caretaker failed to notice him. I know that little bundle of joy, he's that one puppy who kept on trying to climb the steps into the house - sniffing the food we were cooking in the process.  photo...

Monday, October 20, 2014

Back to the Game

Sooooo I've gone back to dieting. After going through limitless stress due to the church events and projects we did in the past few months, I gained back the pounds I lost and it even increased so I'm feeling a little depressed because of it right now, because dude, that's another hell to go through. :/ The motivation is the problem but I have decided to start again today. I got an oatmeal cookie for breakfast, a cup of rice and a few grams of boiled fish for lunch, and nothing...

Tuesday, October 14, 2014

God's Plans...

The year 2014 was supposed to be fun, exciting,  interesting and all. And actually, it is. However, it leans more to the interesting side because this year seems like a healing year to me. Yes,  healing. It feels like God had decided to recreate me and I haven't got a choice but to concede. Kris and Luhan left EXO. Baekhyun announced his relationship. I lost my job on my birthday. Now, sungmin is getting married. More than seeing these things in a negative light,...

Saturday, October 11, 2014

What is Love?

I was asked this typical question this evening by a young friend. While my other friends were probably trying to come up with a good answer, I immediately replied it's a mere illusion. They cursed at me for not believing on it - throwing their replies which basically goes around the idea of it being forever. I smirked. It isn't eternal. Many people are blinded by the idea of love lasting until the end of time when clearly, no human being is capable of giving that much. Only...

Monday, October 6, 2014

And Tears Came Falling...

For the past three months, I've been working my ass off without stopping - in hope to find a good way to find sustaining finances, after being terminated from C&E Holidays without warnings on my birthday. In order to earn, I've decided to push through with all types of part time jobs and businesses, where I was required to eat my pride and instill in my mind that at this moment, this is just what I am. I don't want to complain. I should not complain. But I need to admit...

Numb

When fear overpowers the will to do something, it's either you succumb or you fight back. I am in a crossroad right now. I do feel both: the desire and fear. But in a way, reality's leaning towards the second option more. I haven't gotten over the past, after all. And the result? I currently feel num...

Wednesday, October 1, 2014

Who Said Serving the Church is Easy?

I know. There are some people who think that volunteering in the church is a light form of service. Many assume that since we're in the church and this is the House of God, filled with blessings and all, there's no stress and pressure in there.  Twelve years ago, that was what I thought. Twelve years after, I realized it was completely the opposite. Volunteering...

Monday, September 29, 2014

Me? In Love?

So two of my closest friends came up with something ridiculous. They think that I'm badly smitten, whipped, and totally on my knees. They think that I have already found a new person to dedicate my attention to. Yeah, they think that - as repulsive as it does sound - I AM IN LOVE. But there is no way I am. Honestly. I know myself and I'm not in love. I might be attracted, a little flushed that after a long time, someone has finally caught my attention; but that doesn't mean...

Friday, September 26, 2014

Dreams Coming True

OKAY! So this isn't really the final since there's gonna be a lot more to add like captions and other photos that aren't given to me yet, but as I've said in my Instagram account, it feels so surreal to hold an actual manuscript of a book I have designed, and taken pictures for. Knowing that it's going to be published sooner or later, it ignites anticipation...

Thursday, September 25, 2014

Rurouni Kenshin: The Legend Ends AND WHATEVER THE FUCK IT HAS TURNED ME INTO

If I were to put into words whatever I feel, which term should I use? Elated? Fulfilled? Contented? Or perhaps... Sad? Disappointed? Craving for more? I have just watched Rurouni Kenshin: The Legend Ends with my brother. It has just been released yesterday and I just couldn't let a week pass before I watch it for myself. No, this movie and One Ok Rock's...

#PSFADuties: D-9

So my hands are currently full. I'm working on the 2nd and 3rd chapter of the book. I need to be a good and hardworking daughter today because it's my mom's 64th birthday. And I need to atleast try to squeeze some three hours off my today's schedule to see Rurouni Kenshin with my brother. But that doesn't mean I'm not going to pay attention to the highlight...

Monday, September 22, 2014

Arranged Marriage and What Not

I have been reading an awful lot of arranged marriage fan fictions these days. Every night, before I go to sleep, I make sure I get to finish either a completed or still on-going story about two people put together for a lifetime commitment because of a business transaction. The idea, though a little old, is still fresh to me. Although most stories have the same plot, it's still convincing to me how love might work and create something between the two involved souls. After...

Sunday, September 21, 2014

No Sleep

Although tired from one whole day of general cleaning to get rid of the aftermath of Typhoon Mario in our house and in the church, I should be wasted and exhausted right now. But no, I'm on my computer, working on the book which we're ultimately to finish on the first week of October. Yes, that's pretty much suicide because on the first week of next month, we'll be celebrating the feast day of St. Francis of Assisi. Double work to complete both tasks properly. So in order...

Thursday, September 18, 2014

처음

I am starting to get used to waking up early,  and sleeping early of course, that i just found myself right now watching Korean shows. To be honest, I think I am now learning the importance of finding time for myself. And I have the drama 괜찮아 사랑이야 to thank for that. Hihihi. However,  there is just one worry in my mind right now. I need money to pay for the bills this month. Where would I get that. The website hasn't been paid yet and the money I got from Google has...

Wednesday, September 17, 2014

Fanfic Prompt: Luhan Story

There are actually a lot of things going on in my mind right now, about stories I wanted to write - all of which would want Han to be the main character. My brain is drowning in ideas on scenarios, dialogues, and plot twists that I couldn't write at all. Somehow, it all gets tangled up that I don't know anymore if the ends meet to actually create a nice tale. Right...

Sunday, September 14, 2014

#SanKikoFiestaPreps Entry No. 2: Designs 2.0

One of the biggest challenge for me as an amateur layout artist is doing huge designs. Once, I did stuff with 12-foot dimension and it made my computer crawl. Finding good HD materials is also quite a pain in the ass, but this problem's easily resolved, thanks to my background in photography and my lovely Lumix FZ150 camera. That is why when I was told that...

Saturday, September 13, 2014

#SanKikoFiestaPreps Entry No. 1: Designs

I intended to blog about the preparations for the Solemnity of St. Francis of Assisi but I ended up writing the first entry just now. Loser much? Okay. So first of all, the idea of keeping this blog (or maybe its readers, if there is one) actually came up when Yuxing unnie told me that I should start writing about good things. And right now, there's no better...

Thursday, September 11, 2014

First Time Revealing These Thoughts

A lot of people think I'm just making excuses. They think I'm just making it all up to get attention, to escape responsibilities. But that's not the case. Whatever I'm whining about are all real. Whenever I say that my head aches or my body's faint or I'm in no condition to do something, they would just scoff and still force me to do what has to be done - simply because they don't believe that I am capable of feeling those. I guess I've been too strong in the past that now,...

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