The Only Thought
The only thought in my mind right now is that I'm not worth it. I'm never worth it....
Saturday, August 30, 2014
Friday, August 29, 2014
Four Days Seclusion
I can't say it was a good experience, but it turned out okay as it ended. It wasn't one of the memories I can treasure because of what happened and what I felt during my stay; but I'm still thankful nonetheless that I got to visit Tagaytay again after so many years, with the priests of the Diocese of Malolos. To be honest, I'm not sure about the name of the...
Wednesday, August 27, 2014
I Hope...
I'm clinging onto that one last strand. I'm fervently wishing that I am given not a final reason to let go. I'm not ready, after all. Years had passed and I had repeatedly stated I've moved on but I've never been even a bit truthful - or at least, it was unconscious. I'm trying. But apparently, there's nothing else now. It's no longer me. It's already him who's staying away, who's maintaining a huge distance between us. And I understand. I understand so well. It means I no...
Friday, August 22, 2014
Exhausted.
I am tired. No, it's not about my lack of sleep or the fact that I've been traveling a lot these days. I'm just emotionally exhausted. Very exhausted. To be honest, I find it unfair. I'm doing every bit of what I can to forget and denounce the truth that I crave for emotional security and comfort. I bury myself on too much work, hoping to get distracted from all these anxieties - because it's getting more and more intense that it's beginning to scare me so much. But...
Thursday, August 14, 2014
내 눈
I was in first year college when I first created a Facebook account. That was around 7 years ago, when the site wasn't still that famous yet. I posted a picture of myself which I took when I was in some sort of an awarding event in my university. It was nothing extra-ordinary. I just took the liberty to snap a memory when I was wearing a nice dress in school. The...
Wednesday, August 13, 2014
Move Back or Move On?
In life, you only make two decisions: to move forward or go backwards. Coming up with a choice between the two requires strength, courage and bravery. Because once you decided, there should be no more turning back. And that's the difficult part. Picking which way to go is like choosing between your mom and dad. For some, it might be easy; but for others,...
Monday, August 11, 2014
One Year and a Day - Park Saebyul
ONE YEAR AND A DAY - PARK SAEBYUL 오늘도 늘 그랬듯이Today too, it's like that.친구들 속에서 넌 환히 웃고 있어With friends, there's an evident smile 모두들 취해 갈때면When everyone goes drunk그제야 조심스레 인사를 건네네For the first time, we speak of greetings 아는지 혹시 날 바라볼까Wonder if by any chance, you're watching me언제나 이 자릴 지키는 것Always, I'll protect this place. 눈부신 햇살처럼 따스하게 내리는 널Like the dazzling sunshine, you're a falling warmth.언제까지 간직하고 싶어Forever, I want to treasure.그저 흘러가는 저 하얀 구름들처럼 난I'm...
Monday, August 4, 2014
Dream
I am a frustrated artist. I'm not a professional but I think I can draw and I know a little about sketches. I didn't know I can until I saw the practice artworks of Guillermo Tolentino at the National Museum when I went there last year with Lui. From then, I decided to indulge myself with pencils and the wonders it could do; but my busy life hindered me from...
Saturday, August 2, 2014
Did I Save A Nation in My Past Life?
It's 3:30AM and I'm waiting for my friends to fetch for another whole day of work around Bulacan churches. Killing time, I went online. After tearing up in frustration because of Sehun's glory, intense gratefulness followed when I read again Yuxing Unnie's blog... about me. I have talked over and over again how I met her. It all started with Super Junior and the blog I ran about them. It was a casual virtual meeting between a blogger and a passer-by. I never thought she was...
